I was a little bit afraid that grief would stage a sneak attack, and so did not want to be alone this morning. I nearly ran to the pickup and hopped in with Farmer John. I've learned it's almost impossible to feel depression or grief when you are riding in a pickup with the windows rolled down (if it is hay fever season you might feel allergy symptoms, but you won't be depressed about it).
While John fed cattle I walked through the pasture and took some photos, breathing in a peace that I could almost taste. I stood for a few moments in a field of sunflowers, and shot several seconds of video in an attempt to share their soothing dance:
I love "rear view mirror" photos, and this one seemed especially significant because the sky ahead is a little bit bluer and clearer than the clouds behind (Jeremiah 29:11 comes to mind; see quote below).
We finished our morning circuit of checking cattle and when John pulled into a pasture just down the road from our house, I hopped out and walked home. The temperature had risen to near 90, and the sun was hot at my back. I was very happy to see my dear old yellow farmhouse appear before me as I cleared the windbreak east of our house.
"For I know the the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11).
"LORD, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance" (Psalm 16:5-6).